Did you ever stop to consider the fact that the twelve apostles were, in fact, twelve apostates, as viewed by the religious leaders of the day?
Of course, one of them was not, showing his true colours in the betrayal of God Himself. Funny, innit? It was the one who was NOT apostate who betrayed the Lord.
Just thought I would mention that in passing... just as a reminder that it is very dangerous to judge people on the basis of human standards. Better not to judge people at all. Judge only clear and obvious sin by avoiding it even unto death.
As an old French proverb I read somewhere says, "There is no pillow so soft as a clear conscience."
Sleep well, my friends.
;-)